Spiritual Path

Finding My Happiness

I have found myself for the past few years struggling to stay happy and grateful.  From the loss of my brother 2 years ago to now my father falling extremely ill.  Being on the road has been a challenge.  I miss my kids, I miss my brother and I am hurting because I miss my father.  I feel I need to spend as much time around him as possible.  The issue is he is not able to communicate.  I know it’s been difficult to deal with the fact that we sold everything for this journey.  I understand we will not be on the road for the rest of our time here.  It should be fun? So, why can’t I stay happy, why can’t I be grateful every day.  I follow my spiritual journey and I try my best to rise with gratitude each day.  Some days are more challenging than others. 

How are you staying focused?  How do you stay happy and grateful? 

Check out my thoughts on this titled “How do you stay focused…” on YouTube https://www.youtube.com/@Coffeeanxietylove

— MUSH LOVE

As I continue my journey find me talking more and more…

I finally started my video journal on my path to self healing. I have been very nervous about saying some of the words I have said. It’s been difficult having to remember, having to feel again and having to speak the words. I hope you find my journey of words and remembering helpful. I want to say these things so people know don’t be afraid to say it, don’t be embarrassed to recall it and speaking the words aloud will help you heal.

Take a look at my video on what I did in Kindergarten behind the classroom writing tablet. LOL!!!

— MUSH LOVE

JOURNEY TO MY SELF

UPDATE – I have been writing in my shadow journal and writing to my brother more often. My mom has actually helped open up a few memories I had locked far far away. I feel a lot better about some of the choices in my life I have recently made and come to peace with them. I let go of a long time friend or I thought maybe we were friends but maybe it was something else I didn’t understand. I now feel like I was there with them just so they could entertain themselves with what was happening bad in my life so they could say they were better. I don’t know that’s just how I feel now. I could be wrong but I have let it go. My journey is not over but me worried about my past, worried about how my “friends” see me or what my family thinks, no longer holds me back. I need to move forward and find my happiness and success for myself, my husband and my kiddos.

As of Thursday May 16th, I started my day 1. What does that mean? I have chosen to work on me, self-care, self-love, and healing. I really have been trying to do this for a long time now and have been extremely fearful of what I might find. I have sat back and watch my husband CJ tackle his journey. It was not easy and his trauma was so different from mines, I felt that if it was that hard for him, it was going to be horrible for me. I know now, every journey is different. Every journey requires different work from each individual. Every journey is hard in its own way.

My Kids
My Love
Just me
Grandkids

I was doing it wrong. I was self medicating not knowing how much harm I was causing. I just felt as if I was having fun around “friends”, and yes some of them were friends. Most just were there for the same reason I was, to drink it away. Or maybe we were hoping that if we snorted enough crap up our nose, maybe the pain will stop. I was lost but didn’t know it, I soon started to understand later that I was not lost so much as I was searching for myself. Searching in the wrong way. So, here I am trying to find me, find who I truly am and walking through the bad stuff I have been trying so desperately to forget.

Here we learn me…

Check out my day 1 post on my YouTube channel.

www.youtube.com/@michelleluna3102

A SPRITUAL JOURNEY WITH CJ

There are several means of fasting, intermittent fasting, water fasting and spiritual fasting are a few. What does spiritual fasting mean to us? A means to reach the divine and to gain heighten awareness and clarity. Fasting means so much to so many, the path taken is up to each individual. We do not promote fasting as a means of not eating, your body needs water and nutrition to survive. Before embarking on any fasting journey please talk to your doctor or nutritionist or a fitness trainer. Both CJ and my self have work with trainers before starting intermittent fasting as a way to help boost our weight loss. I am also a certified trainer and nutrition coach and we are both aware of our limits. Here is the interview with CJ and his feelings and thought on why he takes these journeys.

–MUSH LOVE

GET YOUR CYRSTALS, MOON WATER AND INTENTIONS READY

PINK FULL MOON

TUESDAY APRIL 23

So I love and follow Maggie Taylor, she is having a Pink Moon Ceremony in the coming days. Please check out her Instagram for more info on the next full moon ceremony.

I’ve started to perform my own cleansing ritual for the full moon. I have not been able to be as consistent as I’d like to with this but I am working to get better. I usually have a glass jar that I fill with water to be able to drink or cleanse with. I also put out my crystals to recharge under the full moon light. I will usually speak my own affirmations as I prepare the water and crystals.

Have fun learning about the full moon and speaking your affirmations with Maggie Taylor.

Here is the sign up link for her ceremony:

https://www.maggiebyrnetaylor.com/events/the-pink-full-moon-ceremony

Follow Maggie Taylor at her IG link below:

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C57cxqpujT_/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link&igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==

The best care is self care, it is not selfish. Rise each day and set intentions, manifestations and goals for the day. Take a minute to breathe, take a minute to speak powerful words for your self, take a minute to stretch and renew your body. As you do these things, be aware of where you are, where you want to be and how you will get there. Remind yourself that you are powerful, you are intelligent and you are a beautiful creation. There is only one you and you must take care of it. A few minutes for yourself will change your entire outlook of the day. Make a wise choice to be happy, healthy, strong, and look forward toward your abundance.

Full Moon Water

Reminder – Tuesday, April 23rd is the Pink Full Moon. A few things I do on nights of the full moons. I make my moon water and recharge my crystals. I also, set my intentions for each full moon. This is a time to release physically or mentally those things that are not needed or wanted. A time for renewal and new directions. A time to set out your water and speak your intentions and goals.

How to make your moon water. Grab any clear jar, I use mason jars or a glass pitcher. Fill to desired level and set in a spot that will have your water under the moonlight as much as possible. As you set you water in place, speak your words and set you new intentions and goals that you wish to achieve. I also set out my crystals to recharge under the full moon light. To recharge you crystals, simply place on top of your jar or pitcher, if you can not set atop, place them in a clear container as close as possible to your water. This ritual can be done at any time under the moon light, but the most energetic time is under a full moon. But be sure to collect your water before the sun comes up. You can now enjoy your water as you like, drink a little every day or drink with the day and be mindful of your intentions you have set.